[Boatanchors] Apology and eating crow

[doc at kd4e.com]

I didn't notice anything unusual, though sometimes we play a little
rough on some of the lists, most don't take it personally as everyone
has a rough day and lets off steam now and then.

It takes a big man to fess-up and ask forgiveness, so kudos to you
my friend!

It has been a couple of decades since I visited Hawaii, it was
interesting but not a place I would choose to live, largely due to
some of the factors you mentioned.

You are carrying some personal loads that would crush other men;
stay the course and please continue to bless us with your unique
technical knowledge and your most-usual words of encouragement!

73, doc

> I would like to apologize to everyone for my behavior a few months ago.
> It was reprehensible and shameful, and I am truly sorry.  There was and
> is no excuse for it.
>
> By way of explanation but not excuse, basically it was a meltdown that
> started in arc5 & milsurplus on qth.net and ended a month or two later
> in boatanchors on the same list server.  Between my own psychiatric and
> physical issues and Noelle’s, I’ve been under an ever increasing amount
> of pressure with no relief except seeing my therapist but I haven’t had
> that luxury except rarely due to scheduling issues.  Two things have
> happened since.  First, my shrink changed my med load which seems to be
> helping some and some progress is finally being made vis-à-vis my leg.
> I have to admit that the word “amputate”, which the doctors involved
> have been bandying about doesn’t set well but it is at least something
> and it’s better than nothing.
>
> Something I shall continue to do is take shots at Hawaii.  Part of the
> local culture is to laugh at ourselves.  It’s like me calling myself a
> lolo haole except at a wider level.  As far as literacy goes, we have
> one of the worst educational systems in the country (2nd or 3rd, as I
> recall) and probably the most useless Department of Education anywhere.
> Our government actively discourages new business here, depending on
> tourism (and taxing tourists in ever increasing increments while doing
> so) and the military to supply the state’s income.  Add in a population
> that’s small and primarily service oriented and there’s little basis for
> any sort of a tech base.
>
> In a nutshell, that’s Hawaii.  And I’m going to continue to take shots
> at it because I live here and it’s part of the culture.  And I’ll
> continue to portray myself as a “grass shack living tree-climber” with
> the intellect of a gnat because that is Hawaii as well.  And I’ll be
> sitting here grinning like an idiot all the while, hoping people will
> laugh along with me.
>
> Now, I’ve never been much of a contributor anywhere.  A raiser of
> questions and a misunderstander of answers, yes.  Contributor, not so
> much.  This has historically been true in these three lists and was in
> the three previously mentioned.  (In point of fact, if anyone were to
> mention my name in any of the previously mentioned ones, the response
> would be, “Who?”)  Since I haven’t suddenly grown an IQ, I doubt this
> will change a lot, especially with the amped up med load.  But I shall
> try very, very hard to behave in a far more civilized manner and hope
> someone will head me off if I start drifting again.
>
> Again, my deepest and most humble apologies for my behavior.
>
> A revised copy of this will be going to a small group via private email
> as well.
>
> Mahalo nui loa for your attention.
>
> Best regards,
>
> Michael, WH7HG BL01xh
> http://www.nationalmssociety.org/chapters/NTH/index.aspx
>
> http://wh7hg.blogspot.com/
> http://kludges-other-blog.blogspot.com
> <http://kludges-other-blog.blogspot.com/>
> Hiki Nô!

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